LIMITLESS, OR LIMITATIONS?

That is the question! A lot of people would say that "Fear creates limitation," and they are probably right. Myself, I've had a FEAR OF LIMITATIONS most of my life, which manifested in a chronic state of indecision for me (stagnant pond feeling, yuck!). Up until recently, my future plans had been paralyzed for a year or two, as I'd been unable to choose what path I wanted my life to take. I'd been in a physical state of intertia, even though I had been growing spiritual and intellecutally.

Basically, I had been afraid that choosing a direction or focusing my efforts would then restrict me from doing other things that I enjoy. Strangely, I had even said that I felt crippled by the fact that I have had too many choices in my life! That made me feel pathetically self-indulgent, like a woman who has too many clothes to choose from so refuses to get dressed! So my intention lately has been to unravel what was going on with this fear, and set my life flowing in a specific direction.

Because of this lack of direction, I'd only been making things worse, by not using my gifts and talents! It snowballed into a lack of inspiration, lack of energy, and then lack of caring about anything (= depression). Underneath it all could be fear of failure, I suppose. For instance, if I chose the "wrong thing," then got stuck in the consequences, I'd feel I had no control. I've learned that a sense of control is a very important thing for us humans, so perhaps being indecisive meant that I was in control! Or was it perhaps the fear of choosing the "Right Thing???" Suddenly going down the "right" path could lead to disappointment!!! Well, I do over-analyze things... I also don't function very well without boundaries (such as when having a paying job or having coursework dealines). Additionally, ADD runs in my family, but I refuse to paint myself with that brush, its just a label after all, not an answer.

The great thing is this: I've been studying the Mind/Body/Spirit connection for a few years now and have discovered many amazing things! It has created a slow-burning fire inside of me, which has been gaining momentum the past several months, and has now manifested in my participation in an on-line challenge group (www.cocreatingourreality.com). My energy is really starting to flow in a focused direction as a result of my understanding of thought, feeling, energy connection (see The Secret!). I am finally understanding how to set goals and intentions, so I no longer feel mired down in the despair of indecision. I have altered my belief that too many choices has made me crazy, and am open to the possibilities of having anything and everything that I choose!!!

Last, I am not afraid of the fear anymore, knowing that making a choice and moving forward will have its own rewards, never mind the risks, it is all part of the journey that I am starting to embrace.

Love and Light! CJ