MANIFESTING BULLIES...

Well, I have had a realization this week. It's not nice, but I think you might see how I got there.
I have been manifesting bullies into my reality.

Yuck.

This is how it started: My son's preschool is connected to a primary (infant) school. I walk past the playground while taking him there while the schoolkids are outside for recess. I witnessed some bullying one day, noticed that the teachers were standing around chatting, not watching the children, and it made me mad. I made a mental note that my son wouldn't be going there. Since then I have witnessed at least 3 more incidents of bullying, teacher's ignoring, etc. Once I even went up to the fence and told the bully-boys that they weren't being very nice.

Last weekend we were at the mall and we sat down at a little cafe table to have a snack. We were sort of near the doors and two girls came in, sat down next to us and started smoking. They were probably about 15. Since it was a non-smoking mall I asked them if they could please take it outside, we were trying to eat and there were several small kids right nearby. The girls just stared at me, looked terribly offended and told me to "CHILL OUT!" The funny thing was that I was being really calm, just pointing out the facts to them. I told them that I was being calm, that they were the rude ones. They went and stood with some other teenagers, pointed at us, threw straws at us, and then left. I have to say that I got really irate, and a little bit nervous. It was the same sheepish feeling that I had when I was younger, in the face of my childhood bullies.

Now forward to this week: I've had several rude, sarcastic, even vicious comments on my YouTube videos, mainly the ones pertaining to the backlash against The Secret (also whenever i've left comments for others, intending to be supportive). I began to get leery of checking my comments each day, and got very upset by one particular poster. I had to do some self-hypnosis to calm down, and later told my husband that there were BULLIES on YouTube. I've since taken steps to eliminate the non-constructive messages, and I've let go of worrying about the people who were doing it.

BUT, it dawned on me today that I've been drawing these negative souls and circumstances merely by giving it attention. I have to be honest and say that I do "look for bullies" when I go past the school now, and that will have to change. It will take a conscious effort for me, I will look for some really beautiful, kind child instead, and smile at them.

Any other suggestions, please leave me comments!
Ciao for now!
CK